im sooooo bored. ew.
anyways went on a ce trip today with moo. didnt even noe where we were going waha and ended up at bedok! eh the trip itself wasnt that interesting...but for the sake of ce pts...well. afterwards the bus dropped us off at bedok interchange...my 1st time going there ha. the feeling there is kinda similar to clementi i guess.
yup n i cant decide how to go to jurong point from there...initally settled on taking 30 all the way to boon lay but guess i'll just faint when i reach there. so sat alone at the interchange thinking and thinking before deciding on taking mrt...ya sometimes i feel like slapping myself haha. i duno but i guess some kind of creepy loneliness crept up on me at that interchange...somehow i feel i dun belong. i cant explain it. ha.
watched snakes on the plane at jp...quite exciting show =)
anyways went on a ce trip today with moo. didnt even noe where we were going waha and ended up at bedok! eh the trip itself wasnt that interesting...but for the sake of ce pts...well. afterwards the bus dropped us off at bedok interchange...my 1st time going there ha. the feeling there is kinda similar to clementi i guess.
yup n i cant decide how to go to jurong point from there...initally settled on taking 30 all the way to boon lay but guess i'll just faint when i reach there. so sat alone at the interchange thinking and thinking before deciding on taking mrt...ya sometimes i feel like slapping myself haha. i duno but i guess some kind of creepy loneliness crept up on me at that interchange...somehow i feel i dun belong. i cant explain it. ha.
watched snakes on the plane at jp...quite exciting show =)
.feel it.
12:54 AM
12:54 AM
im very into cakes lately...waha. must be the after effects of watching wo jiao jing san shun. drools...
i like this photo but my head was cut off lol.
i like and want to get busy. but my hols currently are so empty. cant find another job...damn. kumon will not be open on wed which means i have a whole long week ahead of me.
i just need to be occupied =) .
.feel it.
12:39 AM
12:39 AM
last day of sem 1! seems really fast...i will miss some ppl that i can crap with in class bah. haha. yup n im looking forward to the next sem actaully haha. hopefully i'll have a very nice class =). but all my results for ut3 are disappointing.
so went for interview with moo for daiso today but we failed simply coz we are not 20 yet. =(
looks like im gotta rot for hols then...ew. on the way home met wen and her friend on the bus. surprise surprise! ha so we went for dinner. and i felt good. =)
played around with beatrice's hp yest:
so went for interview with moo for daiso today but we failed simply coz we are not 20 yet. =(
looks like im gotta rot for hols then...ew. on the way home met wen and her friend on the bus. surprise surprise! ha so we went for dinner. and i felt good. =)
played around with beatrice's hp yest:
yup and that extra thing across my head was moo's comb waha.
i heard she came to rp, or woodlands to fetch you. its amazing how small things like this can reach my ears when im not even looking out for it in the 1st place. im glad i didnt see it myself. really glad. the hols have started. 4 long weeks of not worrying if i'll bump into you in sch. i'm glad. it feels good to not read her blog for the past 1week plus n i plan to continue like this.
but i really hate it when it seems like everywhere i go there will be some memory of you. idonotwanttoremember.
如果你从没在我的生活中出现，我会不会觉得快乐一些。
.feel it.
12:09 AM
12:09 AM
watched click yesterday...quite a good movie actually. thought provoking... made me laugh but made me cried too. haha. i really wonder what would i do if i have a universal control like this one...hmm...
i had quite a good weekend actually. went town with moo after class on fri and had a nice time. =). yupyup we walked all the way from fareast to plaza sing and was damn tired at the end of it lol and i ate a lot that day. sat was with wen and we ate ajisen. good food makes me happy. even work at kumon was nice this week.
kk some pics to liven up my blog...
fallen in love with clothes from forever 21 recently =D
yesterday
i wana watch more movies!
i had quite a good weekend actually. went town with moo after class on fri and had a nice time. =). yupyup we walked all the way from fareast to plaza sing and was damn tired at the end of it lol and i ate a lot that day. sat was with wen and we ate ajisen. good food makes me happy. even work at kumon was nice this week.
kk some pics to liven up my blog...
k this pic was from quite long ago...
fallen in love with clothes from forever 21 recently =D
yesterday
i wana watch more movies!
.feel it.
11:39 PM
11:39 PM
its been a longggg time since i updated in sch haha.
yearning to catch a movie..just any movie will do actually. ha...
but i'm having trouble falling asleep at nite recently. which results in me being vvv sleepy in the day...*faint. spent the whole of tuesday just catching up on sleep alone...lol.
be with the one who you really like? or be with the other one just to be loyal?i shocked myself when i thought of a question and found out that i actually knew the answer myself. maybe i just knew it all along but choosed to hide it in some deep corner of my heart at some points, hoping everything will be fine eventually but it did not.
anyway was reading wanyu's blog when i saw this written by her...i hope wanyu dun mind me posting it =)
"It's not sad that you can't be with the person you truly love, it's not sad when the person doesn't know that you love him. It's damn sad AND scary when you suddenly realised that after all these while, he doesn't understand at all, not from the start, not now, not in the future. It's like walking through the endless dark tunnel, found abit of light, happily walked towards it and suddenly realised that you'd be happier walking in the dark. Ignorance is Bliss."
its been 3 weeks and im recovering rather slowly but there were lots of little improvements. just give me some space to rant here. hee.
yearning to catch a movie..just any movie will do actually. ha...
but i'm having trouble falling asleep at nite recently. which results in me being vvv sleepy in the day...*faint. spent the whole of tuesday just catching up on sleep alone...lol.
be with the one who you really like? or be with the other one just to be loyal?i shocked myself when i thought of a question and found out that i actually knew the answer myself. maybe i just knew it all along but choosed to hide it in some deep corner of my heart at some points, hoping everything will be fine eventually but it did not.
anyway was reading wanyu's blog when i saw this written by her...i hope wanyu dun mind me posting it =)
"It's not sad that you can't be with the person you truly love, it's not sad when the person doesn't know that you love him. It's damn sad AND scary when you suddenly realised that after all these while, he doesn't understand at all, not from the start, not now, not in the future. It's like walking through the endless dark tunnel, found abit of light, happily walked towards it and suddenly realised that you'd be happier walking in the dark. Ignorance is Bliss."
its been 3 weeks and im recovering rather slowly but there were lots of little improvements. just give me some space to rant here. hee.
.feel it.
3:06 PM
3:06 PM
yup so life is back to normal. enough of childish acts everyone.
but i didnt expect anyone to tag me back with that msg. cant put my finger on who really did it but i suspect its *u bah. so much for trying to stop ppl from flooding ur blog ah and this is what i got in return. ha whatever i guess i will never get to like *u in my life anyway. =)
unhappy tags are erased!
we'll just carry on our own lives from here then. thanx moo for yest.
the hate cant be erased overnight. but at least i got the apology you owned me.
but i didnt expect anyone to tag me back with that msg. cant put my finger on who really did it but i suspect its *u bah. so much for trying to stop ppl from flooding ur blog ah and this is what i got in return. ha whatever i guess i will never get to like *u in my life anyway. =)
unhappy tags are erased!
we'll just carry on our own lives from here then. thanx moo for yest.
the hate cant be erased overnight. but at least i got the apology you owned me.
.feel it.
3:12 PM
3:12 PM
i didnt tag anything there at all. i didnt even know such a war had occured until everything is already up there.
but its amazing how a comment can spur out so much childish words and arguements yah? it makes me so angry to even see myself being mentioned there when i have done nothing. shouldn't u even be ashamed of yourself?
but im not angry at my friends who started tagging those things there. i know u all care for me. thx. =)
but its amazing how a comment can spur out so much childish words and arguements yah? it makes me so angry to even see myself being mentioned there when i have done nothing. shouldn't u even be ashamed of yourself?
but im not angry at my friends who started tagging those things there. i know u all care for me. thx. =)
.feel it.
6:55 PM
6:55 PM
yup n i went shopping again. but just bought a pair of jeans this time. =) thx karis for accompanying me. another outing after your exams like u said!
im desperately looking for a job during hols. if not im just gona rot to death. hais. or turn to kumon...but that thought makes me feel kind of sick. oh well. didnt really manage to catch any fireworks. just a few seconds of it. waha...its ok.
besides shopping like crazy im stuffing myself with food lately too. better than that hell week of my life where my gastric was pain like crazy n i couldnt even eat any full meal at all.
i realise im writing a senseless entry here...=X
going kbox with agnes n huiting tml =D. i shall enjoy.
seeing those pics in the blog...cant deny the pain that comes back again. but makes me feel more determined to carry on my life like now. i wish i can erase the hate the lies the memories the pain the everything. but its impossible for now coz whenever i think back i still hate you. but im glad i didnt cry when i saw the pics. its not worth it. uhavegivenherallthethingsudidntgaveme.
im desperately looking for a job during hols. if not im just gona rot to death. hais. or turn to kumon...but that thought makes me feel kind of sick. oh well. didnt really manage to catch any fireworks. just a few seconds of it. waha...its ok.
besides shopping like crazy im stuffing myself with food lately too. better than that hell week of my life where my gastric was pain like crazy n i couldnt even eat any full meal at all.
i realise im writing a senseless entry here...=X
going kbox with agnes n huiting tml =D. i shall enjoy.
seeing those pics in the blog...cant deny the pain that comes back again. but makes me feel more determined to carry on my life like now. i wish i can erase the hate the lies the memories the pain the everything. but its impossible for now coz whenever i think back i still hate you. but im glad i didnt cry when i saw the pics. its not worth it. uhavegivenherallthethingsudidntgaveme.
.feel it.
5:45 PM
5:45 PM
been crazy shopping and spending $$$ lately. haha but really shopping makes me feel lots happier. =D
i wana see the fireworks! sigh~
i guess these are all just habits over a long period of time all clashing down now on me. cant deny that i do feel lonely at times. but life is just getting back to usual before all those stuff happened. =) yah n i heart all my pals.
thanks to you, i think i will have a very hard time trusting people again. and well u r not the least bit guilty about it. but its ok...better to know everything now than be blinded by my own fantasies forever.
i wana see the fireworks! sigh~
i guess these are all just habits over a long period of time all clashing down now on me. cant deny that i do feel lonely at times. but life is just getting back to usual before all those stuff happened. =) yah n i heart all my pals.
thanks to you, i think i will have a very hard time trusting people again. and well u r not the least bit guilty about it. but its ok...better to know everything now than be blinded by my own fantasies forever.
.feel it.
12:35 AM
12:35 AM
i hate you.
i fucking hate you.
i wish i can slap you right now.
i really dont use these very rude words usually. but it really explains my anger.
i finally woke up today. saw the lying bastard u really are.
=)
i fucking hate you.
i wish i can slap you right now.
i really dont use these very rude words usually. but it really explains my anger.
i finally woke up today. saw the lying bastard u really are.
=)
.feel it.
3:38 PM
3:38 PM
today was good. im not one who adores drinking but today a little is good. enjoyed the gals' company. =)
i feel numb. very numb. i really wanted to believe that theres nth else. nth can make me forget the sudden chill i felt yesterday night, its so v v cold. but the so called facts and concidences infront of me are hard to ignore. what can i believe in now?
anyway just a pic. met up with siyin on thurs, i enjoyed.
i will stay happy like today. =)
i feel numb. very numb. i really wanted to believe that theres nth else. nth can make me forget the sudden chill i felt yesterday night, its so v v cold. but the so called facts and concidences infront of me are hard to ignore. what can i believe in now?
anyway just a pic. met up with siyin on thurs, i enjoyed.
i will stay happy like today. =).feel it.
1:01 AM
1:01 AM
today is a really hard day to pass. i really dont know if i should write all these down actually haha but guess i will really feel a bit better when i vent everything out.
mrs goh informed us that there is a phsyco around the few blks surrounding kumon luking around and using penknifes to hurt female's faces. i duno y but when i heard that i was scared. v v scared. when i waited alone late at night at the bustop i was so damn scared. i suddenly had the very strong urge to call you. at least talking to someone will make me feel better. but it makes me feel really sad to feel so weak. =l
anyway..went sakae today with moo and mich...but i didnt eat much so i was simply wasting $ waha. prob coz of all the gastric problem i was having last week bah. thx gals. thx wen for making sure im alright.
im glad u unblocked the gals. i do hope that one day i'll be able to c u online too. it still hurts a lot right now especially today. i had to try my best not to cry when i was waiting for 920 home today and i felt like such an idiot. the view at seletar today is beautiful but i felt like crying again. its getting harder for me to stop myself from trying or thinking of contacting u because i noe i will only make myself feel and look stupid if u didnt reply. i feel stupid right now typing all these down. but pretending to be happy everyday is tough. really tough. i want to be strong and i hate myself for being so weak right now. everyone says time heals everything. i do hope so. =)
tml will be a better day! =)
mrs goh informed us that there is a phsyco around the few blks surrounding kumon luking around and using penknifes to hurt female's faces. i duno y but when i heard that i was scared. v v scared. when i waited alone late at night at the bustop i was so damn scared. i suddenly had the very strong urge to call you. at least talking to someone will make me feel better. but it makes me feel really sad to feel so weak. =l
anyway..went sakae today with moo and mich...but i didnt eat much so i was simply wasting $ waha. prob coz of all the gastric problem i was having last week bah. thx gals. thx wen for making sure im alright.
im glad u unblocked the gals. i do hope that one day i'll be able to c u online too. it still hurts a lot right now especially today. i had to try my best not to cry when i was waiting for 920 home today and i felt like such an idiot. the view at seletar today is beautiful but i felt like crying again. its getting harder for me to stop myself from trying or thinking of contacting u because i noe i will only make myself feel and look stupid if u didnt reply. i feel stupid right now typing all these down. but pretending to be happy everyday is tough. really tough. i want to be strong and i hate myself for being so weak right now. everyone says time heals everything. i do hope so. =)
tml will be a better day! =)
.feel it.
10:44 PM
10:44 PM
life is shit. i've been down on my luck like nobody's business...even got a cut on my feet today for just walking past a door and someone happen to just push it open. haiz. shit shit shit.
out of sight, out of mind. ydoesntitapplytome?
u said u dun wan to hurt me anymore but what u are doing or rather avoiding now is simply causing me hurt 10 times more. if u even care a tiny bit u would be the one answering questions by others not me. u would not treat our and the gals' friendship and like crap by blocking us. i wont pester u so u dun nid to do that. u simply dont care.
butistillmissu. i should just slap myself.
out of sight, out of mind. ydoesntitapplytome?
u said u dun wan to hurt me anymore but what u are doing or rather avoiding now is simply causing me hurt 10 times more. if u even care a tiny bit u would be the one answering questions by others not me. u would not treat our and the gals' friendship and like crap by blocking us. i wont pester u so u dun nid to do that. u simply dont care.
butistillmissu. i should just slap myself.
.feel it.
10:20 PM
10:20 PM
